in my “origins of religion” lecture, my prof was talking about a video on youtube that bashed muslims for their beliefs…

anyone have the link?

the thursday right before the long weekend, i went on a biology trip to the zoo (: first time i’ve gone in yeaaars and it brought back so many elementary school memories, but that’s not the point. after the trip finished, some friends and i were on the bus back home, and someone brought up religion. she started to bash on Christianity, and i was so surprised, i couldn’t even say anything. she said that Christianity was stupid, and how unbelievable it was that people believed that there was a person named Jesus who performed countless miracles. i have to admit, while taking biology, i’ve questioned whether Christianity was real. no matter, i got angry. no one’s forcing her to believe it, and she’s entitled to her own opinion, but i don’t get why she continued to talk shit about it even though she knew my friend and i were Christian. we believe because we were brought up to, because we know that this is something that is real. what really got on my nerves is that while she was saying all of this, my friends were laughing uncontrollably. but again, i didn’t say anything. it was so stupid that they were judging other peoples’ religion while they didn’t know anything about it. i’ve questioned it many times, just like they did, but i would never judge anyone because of it. 

- i’m not looking for an apology, i’m looking for respect.

“it takes more faith to be Atheist than to be Christian.” - pastor at SCBC.

i haven’t talked to anyone about this except with my sister today. we brushed upon the fact that i haven’t been going to church as often as i should, and why. and i guess it crossed my mind a couple times, and think that the people wondering should know. i’m not a bad person, i’m not drifting away, and i’m not disturbed because i don’t go.

the first weeks where i stopped going was actually because i was busy with school, and adjusting to life as a junior. this part i told people, and some said “there’s no such thing as being busy in highschool. that’s not an excuse”. and that didn’t really make any sense to me at all…. i don’t think they knew what it was like to struggle to keep up in a specialized program, let alone know what i had to do at school on a day-to-day basis. some people did have the heart (and to those who didn’t say anything, i’m not saying you don’t have one) to ask me to come back, and i always said “maybe”. it’s not so much about the people in the church that’s keeping me away, but the fact that it’s become so unorganized. i first realized this when i was a part of the committee in the youth group. i was told to do so many things last-minute, and i just couldn’t keep up. after i served in that committee for a year, i quit. yes, i quit. the people in the committee were amazing, without a doubt and i got to know them better. i also grew in my faith and i still consider myself as a Christian even though church isn’t my first priority because that’s how i was brought up, and because i believe everything i was taught. so back to the topic. recently, my parents were trying to wake me up for church, and they’d say the most surprising things, thinking i was still sleeping. they’d say things like “i bought you so many things, and now you can’t even wake up for church?” and i was speechless. nothing came through my mind for a split second. and then i thought “i don’t want to be bribed into going. i don’t care if you bought me a lot of material things, because it has nothing to do with going or not. i want to go to church because i want to, not because other people want me to.”. when i was younger, sure i’d go just to see my friends. not so much for the lessons. if they said that to me back then, i’d shrug my shoulders and go out of the door without a fight. but now, it just doesn’t make any sense at all.

i hope this cleared at least some things up….